Real Life

That the grass is green, and the sky is blue, that the birds love the bees and oh the bees they love the honey.

That it's weird if we talk to "strangers" Isnt being human enough in common?

That people live with broken hearts

That people smile at making other people frown

That girls wear so much freaking makeup

That I don't care about my parents aproval

That something's can only be fixed by one thing

That no one does service anymore unless they get something out of it

That people don't show there emotion. "What's the point of language unless you say what you feeeel"

That a smile can fix any problem

That it's better to laugh than fight

That fun is my jam and I play it full blast

That we can't forget we can only live with

That anytime black eyed peas comes on I gotta dance

That I can't dance but I do it anyways

That batman is the shit

That I rather have more friends in my life  than commas in my bank account

That people rather hear how people fell in love Instead of how they stayed in love

That I don't get any of this but I'm completly fine with it because sometimes it's better not to understand

Notorious

Its weird it was like there was two of me Frank White and Me.

No you know who everyone is.

So now its just me 

David Michael Flake #realtalk

Recollection

I Remember the day you left

I Remember no one said a word

I Remember giving you a hug goodbye

I Remember going to school and trying to act normal

I Remember not acting normal

I Remember the BLTs after school because it was your favorite

I Remember giving my mom a hug

I Remember being 11

I Remember visiting you every Sunday

I Remember the guacamole chips

I Remember not saying much

I Remember all the green. So much green.

I Remember when you visited my world again for just a day

I Remember waking up to you like it was a dream

I Remember not having an example

I Remember you still smiled the whole time

I Remember you doing the right thing

I Remember it wasn't your fault

I Remember your the one I look up to

I Remember not hating you. Just hating not getting to be with you

I Remember trying to forget

I Remember not making it a excuse

I Remember being happy

I'm happy its just a memory now

Why Black Holes are Beautiful

The Hubble telescope sent back pictures to NASA of deep outer space. And it took pictures of this black hole that was sucking space matter in one end and shooting stars out the other end.

And the scientist calculated it and said that if the black hole was the size of our empire state building and there was a tiny speck of dust next to the empire state building, that tiny speck of dust would be our sun.

Our Freaking Sun.

This huge black ugly mass in a place no ones ever been or ever seen sucking in space matter and shooting out these big gigantic unbelievable stars. This ugly blob was creating these things that were so beautiful.

I think that's how our minds work. Sometimes our mind is traveling along in space and out of no where it gets taken to this dark place. Consumed by it. And we feel like we cant get out of it. We feel like it will never end.

But I think after we come through this dark mass that's where the best of us comes out, that's when we feel the most alive. Sometimes the best things about us come from some of the darkest places.

I got food poising from a hot dog.

I said I would never eat one again.

I ate one about thirty minutes ago.

I digested my broken promise.

I put ketchup and mustard on it. 

I swallowed my lie.

And it tasted so good.

RIP

Sorry. I don't feel like writing about death. Not this week anyways

Dear old friend.

To that one girl that use to make me smile,

I'm not writing this to make it on the top five.
I'm not writing this to get comments.
I'm writing it to get all of these thoughts out of my head. To get all of these broken pieces out of my chest.

Because I don't even know how to say hey to you anymore.
I don't even know how to not talk to you. I've typed "I miss you" on my phone more times than I can count but I can never hit send.
So I just sit there and stare. I stare until my throat gets stuffed and my heart starts to hurt.
Until it starts to ache.
And then it starts to bleed.. until i can't take it anymore, and I hit delete.

What I said to you. I wish i didn't mean it. I wish. but I did.
I wish you didn't pump up my heart just to watch it explode.
I wish I didn't still love you. But i do.
And I wish i wasn't able to still think about you every day. But I cant. But still, I wish.
We did it for the memories but I can't think about those memories without thinking about that one thing.

Oh god I hate that one thing with all my broken heart.

Yes i knew it was going to happen,
Yes you have your excuses but my heart doesn't care about them.
And you want to talk to me but I don't know what to say,



Because my heart cant talk.



P.S. i miss your smile

Becoming Joe

The average persons life expectancy is 75 years.
makes about 1.5 million in their life, and they spend more than half.
smiles about fifty times a day.
and more than half aren't satisfied with their lives.


That's what scares me.
becoming the average person.
to die and have no one remember my name.

So even though I don't know what i want to be when i grow up. I know what I don't want to be.
Average.

I want to be like Bob and be happy

I want to be like Neil and step places no ones ever stepped.

I want to be like Jimi and kiss the sky.

I want to kiss the sky. And I don't care if  it doesn't kiss me back. At least I'm trying to be someone doing something.




Because I'm going to die with more risks than regrets.



(and I will smile more than fifty times a day)

Life's important questions

The mushy thing thats in my head

We write to show whats on or minds. So these are the things that aren't on my mind.

                                               Expired Milk.

                                               The mail man.

Global Warning.

Loud Music.

What I eat.

The end of the world.

group texts.

what I look like.

where my keys are.

a job.

when my license expires.

politics.

alien invasions.

dying.

what other people think.

mistakes.

my handwriting.

Famous people.

        Math.

                                                          Math.

                                                                          what im wearing tomorrow.

                                                         Laughing to much.

                                                             The Illuminati.

its not about music

Is the music to loud?
    I can turn it down.

Is the music to loud?
            I like it loud.

Is the music to loud?
   

If you don't like it.

    I can turn it down.

    Just
Don't
    Stop
Listening.

Because there's holes in the sidewalk

I am the way i am.

      because,

A cannon ball beats a brick wall

French Fries beat Broccoli

The moon beats the sun 

Recess beats Math

because

Volcanoes beat dinosaurs 

Batman beats Bane

Baths beat Showers

Christmas trees beat jack-o-lanterns

because

Biggie beats pac

PB&J beats Ham and cheese

because

Rock beats Scissors

Paper beats Rock

Scissors beats Paper

Nothing beats Gun

  

Skyscrapers and Old Movies

Let's drop life.

Let's go into the woods and get high

Let's move to New York

Let's be young and in love

Let's go swimming in the creek behind your house

Let's look at the stars and talk about the future

Let's get hooked on each other

Let's watch movies no one has even ever heard of

Let's start making dinner. And go to bed hungry

Let's sing along to songs we don't know the words to

Let's not take each other for granted

Let's never stop holding hands

Let's be best friends

Let's do it as long as we're together.

Because Love and Ghosts are the reasons I cant sleep at night

Lifeless.

The air surrounding me.

Its. Different.

I'm scared to breath it in.

I'm scared to see what it would do to me.

So I hold my breath.

Until You came.

And wrapped your hands around my neck.

And squeezed.

Until i was wheezing.

Coughing.

Gasping for the air.

The air I was scared of.

I filled my lungs with the air.

Surprised.

That the thing I thought was going to kill me.

Started to make me feel so alive. 

I inhale it. in and out.

I can't get enough of the precious air.

At every moment I breathe it in.

I'm hooked to it.

Then in one moment.

The air tasted different.

Bitter.

Rotten.

It starts choking me.

Why did I breathe it in?

\\

how did something that made me feel so good.

Make me hurt so bad.

Now i just hold my breathe, Because love is in the air.

Because hearts were made to get stepped on.

And they won't start beating until they do.

être vivant

I've punched six holes in my walls.
 I've snuck out a total of five times.
  I've broken two bones.
   I dance even though I don't know how to.
    I've seen my dad cry once.
     I don't know how to swim.
      I've never have felt god and I don't think I will.
       I don't have a job. ( even though I need one)
      Batman is my favorite super hero,
     And i'm a terrible driver.
    I've laughed more than I've cried.
   I've been in love once but my hearts been broken twice.
  I haven't seen the world.
 I don't think I would go to heaven even if it was real.
My heart beats 72 times a minute and misses a beat every time I see her.

My names Frank White.
And i'm alive.

Me and my Heart

"Its going to be hard. But We'll get through it"

                                 

 There's no "we'll" anymore

                                                            

                                                       

You left me bitch.

Now There's Just Me and my Heart.

And "We'll"

Be.

Just.

Fine.

                                        

Back Off

Ya

I sin

I'm not perfect

but neither are you.

because remember, 

its a sin to judge.

WHAT HAPPENED TO US?

I remember when Reptar was the only dinosaurs name I knew.

candy was worth more than cash. 

And i spent more time outside than i did in.

I remember i took baths because my boats and airplanes couldn't float in the shower.

and my mouth was never the same color.

I remember i cared more about cooties  than germs.

And science wasn't my favorite class, Recess was.

I remember being a kid. And I miss it. 

But just because I have to act like an adult. Doesn't mean I can't think like a kid.

Atelophobia

My name is Frank White. 

And i'm afraid. I'm afraid what I write won't be good enough to make anyone want to read what I say. I'm afraid if I write it too long no one will read it. And if i make it too short then people will think its not important enough. I'm afraid that I will treat this like another assignment I have to get done and not actually make it a experience.




                       But Who Has Time To Be Afraid? You cant enjoy life if your scared to live it.
Hi I'm Frank White.